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Senin, 23 Mei 2016

End of the year resolution


So my new years resolution was to find someone that would love me as much as Id love them...to actually learn to trust someone I could spend forever with. I found that...but now I have a new goal...

I have come to the conclusion that this year isnt going to get any better. Usually the year doesnt crap out on me till around November but its pretty bleh right now. I cant just wait around for January. I have to be stronger especially since its likely Christmas will come around and just shit on me like a sick elephant that took a ton of laxatives.

So first thing is first. First on my list

1) get a job. The most important thing. I have applied from Citrus Heights to Natomas. This is a tough one...but one of my issues is lack of money and lack of places to vent and spend alone time...due to lack of money. A lot of my issues would be solved if I could take care of myself.

2) create a "to do" list where I list everything Id need to survive on my own and everything I want. I have very few wants but...hey. So far it includes
-Getting freeway groomed
-getting spyro neutered
-get a job
-buy my own printer/paper
-buy detergent free laundry soap so my skin can stop killing itself
-buy a bicycle
-learn to drive (this will very much not even happen till the end)

3) Convince grandparents they dont need the mac or the wireless router. In general it has only created problems for them. If I took the Mac they could put the printer where it stands...thus making me able to connect it via USB. This printer is terribly slow via wireless...no joke. And with no need for a wireless router...

4) Do something Adam would totally enjoy and could brag about later...just because I love him

5) Pass school so I can get financial aid next year


And my other list of things I want to do for the community.

1) Spay at least two litters of kittens

2) Donate to a church that feeds the hungry/helps the community (likely Thim/Kings)

3) Volunteer at a hospital/shelter (in progress)

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Minggu, 01 Mei 2016

eff


Totally terrible day yesterday. Well didnt start out bad...it just went downhill really fast. Maybe Im over exaggerating...


*sigh* its carried over into today....

and has become one of those times when the only thing that keeps you going is the hope that tomorrow will be better...that time will fix it all.

But in reality I think Im tired of waiting...

Even the strongest man can only carry the extra weight around before they can get tired. They just cant keep doing it =

So in happy news...I got to eat nice food yesterday thanks to Adam. Not really used to fresh food but hey...not gonna complain about that. Also since I was so effing depressed last night I went to bed at 8 and probably passed out around 9. So yup all energized right now =]
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