The Enlightenment

This blog totally isnt on religion but....lets rant on the subject for a bit.

I hate people that assume their religion is the right religion.

This is the Wiccan creed. I chose this because Wiccan, although I dont really claim it as my own, is the closest religion to my personal beliefs.

As you see it is much like the golden rule...

except you can do whatever as long as youre ok with someone doing it to you and you are not hurting anything.

If you are good...good will come back to you...if you are bad...bad will hit you times three.

ANYWAY

so back to what this blog is really aboutz

Its about my personal enlightenment. To try as hard at stuff as I can. That things will get better.

Its hard...Im completely burnt out and feeling anxious about everything. The thought of going to class brings on the feeling of extreme anxiety.

So Ive decided I do want a double major...but heading towards vet medicine.

And work on computers =]

only cause I wanna work for GOOGLE

So I totally failed on Dinglepop the other day. I helped someone out so I could swap them but ended up helping them get first place.

lame -_-

And this morning all of my dingles were gone so I got first place but then I lagged out.

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odd dreams

Ok well only involves one dream.

I will tell you the whole thing (as I remember) but only cause it was that odd....but theres one key point that confuses me.

So...

Adam left our condo to hang out. I told him Chris, my ex would be over just to visit. No big deal. Chris came over. "I miss you and want you back and never want to go home. Will you take me back?" I looked at him in a confused face. "uhhh no?" So to break awkwardness I asked Kelly if she wanted to go to this party with me. She agreed. So I left.

We had to cross the worlds largest intersection to get to the party.

*I dont remember this part of the dream....some junk happened?*

I went to pee in the toilet that was overflowing and flushing at the same time...making a whirlwind sort of thing. I did some gymnastic move to pee in it. Then I took off all my clothes and left. "Where are your clothes?" Kelly said. "Theyre wet in the bathroom."

We went back into the bathroom and their was a chick in a wheelchair throwing up in the scary toilet. I grabbed my clothes and she came closer. Suddenly I noticed another, non scary, normal toilet to my right. She dunked her head in it and flushed then put it in a ponytail like it was the normal way to do hair.

I put my clothes in the hosts room. Then we crossed the intersection.

*more junk happened?*

Now Im awake and confused. Well this dream was like...on Friday or something lol. Anyway...why does he keep popping up in my dreams? I have absolutely no feelings for him...at all and I dont want anything to do with him relationship wise at all. So confused!

I mean...I love Adam. No doubt about it. Im not hiding anything. I have no idea what my mind is trying to tell me. That I still wanna at least be friends? That I think you did the wrong thing and will regret it...even though I dont care?

I mean its the second dream in a year where he has popped in to tell me he loves me and to ask to be taken back. Its not much but still...very odd.

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